1 kid + 3 kids = 4 kids

I’m debating on whether to start a new blog due to the changes I have made in my life.  In 3 months, I’ve gone from being a single mom of 1 from Texas to a stay-at-home mom of 4 in Oklahoma. plus the future husband, who on some days counts as child 5.  When I was back in Texas I always said I didn’t want to stay at home and not work.  I still think I feel that way, but I’m managing to give this a shot. Everytime the dryer dings, I crave a job.  Almost every moment of my day, I crave a job.  Is this normal when you first start staying home after working?  Sometimes I wonder if it’s because I’m having a hard time not being independant.  Then I think it’s boredom or feeling worthless.  This week I’m struggling with the worthless feelings.  My patience is thin and I want to hide underneath the bed when the kids get home from school because I can’t handle the overwhelming feling of everything I cleaned and organized during the day is being destroyed or the fact that everyone needs to do their homework, but I have to crack a whip to get them started on it. I love them all, but I feel suffocated some days.  Is this normal?? How do these moms keep up with all the housework and cook dinner and stay on top of the kids messiness, then not want to freak the hell out???????? AND have time to decorate and do all these crafty happy things.  It’s like i’m part braindead when it comes to this domestic shit.  Will I get used to this? Nope. I want a job. NOW! Then I can bitch about the mess when i get home from work.  But, at least I won’t feel like I’m living in a bubble.  How do women do this??

 

Stay tuned……

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One thought on “1 kid + 3 kids = 4 kids

  1. sister says:

    Yes! Sister this is normal, all these life challenges come you way, but if i might add this to shall pass. Feeling overwhelmed is a feeling of commitment. Ive been there (minus kids) but i was independent with just me and my dog and then to three dogs, sometimes 4(him). Lol if u want to work other than at home, find something small to keep that mind busy and little cash in your pocket for ur crafts. Maybe afternoon shifts. You can do this! Ur a Horton and that’s what we do…stay strong! Love you xoxo. If i can do this and “survive” so can you. 🙂

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